Feeling the Feelings
March 9th, 2010 | 
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pricking the crusty scab over the wound in my heart…letting it bleed
I must…there is no alternative if I want to be an alive, pliable, feeling human being
a moment’s courage to stick the needle of my consciousness in
please, hold my hand, Greater Self
and it’s done. see, it only hurt for a moment
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ahhh, the relief of letting it flow
the cleansing tears, the exorcizing of little demons in the dark corners of my psyche
the ones that have held court, whispering lies into my ears,
stringing nets and springing traps
grabbed up by the rush of cleansing waters from the genuine soul
lifted by the torrent of feeling, they are exposed and expunged through the grand golden portal of my heart
poured out onto the stones at my feet where they flip and writhe
I feel awe and compassion as I watch them dissolve in the light of the sun
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Tags: acceptance, balance, body, feelings, healing, health, poetry, transformation, trust, truth
Beautiful! Again you amaze me with your ability to express deep emotional spaces so clearly and articulately!
wow, I am breathing again. thanks for sharing that very clear visual for me to carry
Thanks you guys…it seemed the right way to express what happened for me that morning! I was feeling so anxious, angry, and unsafe. I felt like being a bulldozer out of control, no one steering and it moving at top speed, just reckless destruction, inside (and out, I said something not very nice to my Beloved).
It was when my Beloved showed me how hurt he was by what I said that it arrested the wreckage, and my heart opened and the feelings of sadness and fear came pouring out. I felt truly cleansed after, and much more at peace.
The point is that I could have hid from my feelings all day, either painting a happy face on them and pretending all was well, driving those feelings ever deeper into my psyche…or I could have kept them right under the surface without stopping to prick the wound, moving about like a robot with a broken chip, creating havoc wherever I went.
For me, the wise path is to have the courage to feel the feelings, to gather the information the feelings were holding for me…thus releasing the tied-up energy inside. Energy Alchemy.