Day 9 – April 2, 2013
So, it is day 9 since Jess’s traumatic brain injury and brain surgery, and he is being discharged from the inpatient rehab hospital into outpatient rehab and my care. It is ridiculous, miraculous, unheard of. The medical staff has never seen or heard of the speed of recovery we’ve seen with Jess. They are dumbfounded and very, very happy, as are we.
9 is a Completion number. It is the end and the doorway to another beginning. It is also considered a Humanitarian number, with a devotion to be of service in the world. I also found some other pertinent info in terms of where Jess is in his process:
Symbolism of Number 9
- Number of the patience, the meditation.
- Number of the harmony, it represents the inspiration and the perfection of the ideas.
- It is the expression of “the power of the Holy Spirit”, according to Etchegoyen.
- Symbolize the plenitude of talents, the reward of the tests.
- Symbol of the creation and the life as a rhythm and development.
- As a product of 3 x 3, it is the expression of the perfection, the symbol of the virile power, in addition to be associated to the couple.
- Nine is the number of the one who accomplishes the divine will. According to the Cabal, it is also the number of the achievement.
- Being the last simple number, it is the number of finalization or finition; it is therefore the most complex, that marks the full lighting up of the numerical series.
- Number of the man, as a numeral symbol of his gestation (nine months).
- Number symbolizing the nocturnal and terrestrial things, for the Aztecs.
- Number of the hierarchy, represented by nine choruses of the Angels.
- Represent the three divine manifestations in the three plans: world of the spirit, world of the soul, world of the matter, which gives a triple manifestations of Trinity (3 x 3).
- Symbol of the multitude, and according to Parmenide, it concerns the absolute things and it is the symbol of the totality of the human being.
- A favorable number, associate to the eternity.
Jess got so excited his last night in rehab he had trouble getting to sleep. This morning, when the docs come in, he also got excited as well as upset to hear more about the limitations he is facing for the next weeks and months. We are very clear now that Jess is being reduced to size, meaning that any activity of the emotional, physical, cognitive (or truly any) kind wears him out. The heart/ breath connection that he made on Saturday (the day of the last crisis and ER visit) was a huge milestone for a person whose answer to discomfort was to MOVE and work his body hard. Now, he is having to learn to manage his emotions and energy through discernment, intention, attention, and gentleness so that he is healthy.
The use of energy work is old hat for me, and I have been working with my family since the boys were small to track and manage energy in their body, spirit, mind and heart. I’ve been training since 1995 in various modalities and have worked with energy professionally for over a decade. But the application of the different techniques I’ve learned to this situation has proven them more than at any other time in my life. Jess announced to me, out of the blue, when he was 7 years old that he wanted to be my “apprentice”. Perhaps now he will be stepping into a kind of training with me to bring him into the healed state that he desires. I’m so grateful that he wants to learn the teachings that have made my life so rich; it is good that the knowledge will live on through him. Years ago our family was given an Eagle feather by Dave Braveheart, a Lakota medicine man who descends from Crazy Horse; he said that our family is healing for the world. Maybe this is an expression of that gift.
PATIENCE is the name of the game now. I think this is the most challenging thing for Jess, Mr. Speedy Gonzalez. He has loved to do things fast and pushes himself hard to compete; he has a bit of a perfection attachment and is hard on himself for perceived losses or failures. He is having to learn to be more caring to himself as if he were a little boy in need of a kind adult. He is having to learn sweetness and gentleness, patience and acceptance. He is usually very good about this with others, but not with himself. He is learning that his life depends on it.
The trip home after discharge and the arrival at home were a little surreal. I am having to wipe my schedule clean in order to be with Jess 24/7; he can’t be left alone, and can’t be out in the world until his head is more healed. I’m aware that if he hits or knocks his head, it can put him back to the beginning of this journey. All three of us who witnessed Jess go through the hell of coming back to awakeness don’t ever want to watch that again. I feel like the mother hen watching her chick verrrrrrrrry closely. It is what’s required for the next year of his life. It’s a good thing I like this guy. LOL
We have come to completion for the first phase of Jess’s journey to HEALED and WHOLE; the critical, in-the-hands-of-the-medical-institution portion is over. Now, we begin the longer phase of his recovery in which his head heals: his skull bones and incision knit together, his brain starts to re-regulate, his body accommodates the new normal, and his heart and mind unite within this different life path that has been set before him. He doesn’t quite understand how precarious his health is right now, and maybe that is good. Perhaps it is my task to hold that for him until he can fully understand what a miracle it is that he is with us.
By the way, the Woodpecker came back to Jess’s window after being away since his arrival at rehab; the morning that he was discharged while I was packing us up, our Woodpecker friend drummed a rhythm on Jess’ window for about 45 minutes. Jess was irritated with him because the bird’s rhythm was not he same one that Jess was drumming on his drum pad, and the woodpecker’s rhythm interrupted Jess’s train of thought. I just smiled.
Jess is indeed going to have to find a different rhythm. His life is changed forever, hopefully for the positive. And we are here to hold him while he finds it. We want to thank all of you again for your prayers and positive thoughts for Jess during this crisis; we know his miraculous recovery is due in no small way to the collective mantra of HEALED and WHOLE that we have all been visioning. Thank you from the bottom of my heart for your continued prayers and loving intentions.
I will keep you updated; my work life will be different for awhile, so I will continue with regular updates on Jess every couple of days, with the focus on his recovery. Thanks to you who have contributed to the fundraising efforts for his medical expenses; I heard that it is 42% funded, which is so heartening to us. It is my hope that by writing each update I am helping someone who might be dealing with a crisis, whether a medical one or a crisis of faith. I ask you to please spread the word about this blog as well as the fundraising campaign as positive efforts in the face of some of our worst challenges. Blessings to you and yours. JESS IS HEALED AND WHOLE FUNDRAISING CAMPAIGN
Xo
Licia
